Monday, December 1, 2014
First, I must say that I love you. I didn't always love you, and probably pretty much bordered on hating you, but things and feelings change...and I DO LOVE YOU.
You surprisingly do not look like Quasimodo--which is how you always saw yourself. You are not ugly. I'm surprised that you never realized this. I know a lot of people told you that you were cute, pretty, beautiful, etc..but, in your youthful ignorance, you refused to believe them. YOU SHOULD HAVE. You would have spared yourself many, many tormented moments in your life. You should have spent more time believing in yourself, and your inner beauty, than the years of self-hatred that you felt.
Something else, YOU WERE GOOD ENOUGH. I know that you went through many, many years thinking you were not good enough..But, you WERE. Those good men you dumped because you didn't think you were good enough, you were. You were good enough for ALL of them. Anyone of them would have been blessed to have you, and to have the chance to love you, and be loved by you. The bad men that did you wrong, the ones that you thought you were "good enough" for..THEY were not good ENOUGH FOR YOU. You wasted many years on the losers out there...but, luckily you learned. You did better every time that you choose a boyfriend, after every relationship you did better. They prepared you for the real love from a real man in your life, and everything turns out wonderful.
I have to give you credit. You always stood your ground...and you were as resilient as a rubber ball. You lived your life on YOUR TERMS, and no one else's. This says a lot. You didn't succumb to pressure to be something that you weren't to make someone else happy. You did not always take the easy path, you did not always live by society's rules, but you did it YOUR WAY. For that, I am PROUD of you.
I know that you went through a lot of abuse at the hand's of your "father". You survived. You lived through it. It made you stronger. You didn't become a victim..for that I am PROUD of you. So many let abuse take their life from them. You fought it, and the feelings that it gave you. You overcame what was dished out to you, and realized it was your father that had problems, and not you. Same for the "mother"..you realized that she deserted you--and you basically owed her nothing. You left both of these parental figures in the dust, where they should have been left. Good for you!!
You were very fortunate. God continuously sent you the MOST AMAZING people to love you. Throughout your life, your friends became your backbone, your heart, and they kept you standing when you could not stand alone. I hope that you gave back to them, and loved them as much as they loved you. I know from experience that your friends are the major reason that you are who you are today.
You did some things wrong. ONE--you should have followed your dreams early on. When your family told you that ART would not make you a living, you should have told them to jump off the nearest pier into the deepest water, and you should have made ART. You should have followed every dream you had, and not listened to "family". They were WRONG. You were meant to be an artist, and you knew that for as long as you could form a complete thought...I'm PROUD of you for showing them that they were wrong. Good girl!!
Another thing that you did wrong, and I am not going to preach at you, but you most likely should have left the alcohol, and marijuana alone. They made you feel better for a few moments, but trust me..they created more problems than they were worth. You are lucky that it never went into the harder drugs..the ones that can steal your soul from you.
You did the best that you could with the cards that were dealt to you. You raised your child , maybe not in the perfect "June Cleaver" way, but you did the best that you could at the time. She grew up to be a wonderful human being. She turned out kind, strong, compassionate, smart, and able to stand on her own two feet through anything. She ends up making you very proud to be her mother. You will grow up to feel guilty about the time that you hit her with a broom though..(LOL).
All in all..even though your road was a hard one..it was all worth it. It brought you to a really good place in life. You made it...and you WIN. I hope the rest of "our" journey is as productive and exciting as it has all been. I DO LOVE YOU, Suzan
Tuesday, November 18, 2014
Sunday, November 9, 2014
Society 6. You can now get my art as prints, or on pillows, clocks, phone cases..etc!! I have only started to upload, and only got as far as a couple of months into 2010..so, you will see some oldies, but goodies!!! Just send me a note if there are any that you want up before Christmas.
I do have some friends that have ordered pillows from Society 6 -- and they are HAPPY with the quality of the material, and with the art reproduction..and anything that you are not happy with, you may send back for a refund!!
CLICK HERE TO GO TO MY SOCIETY 6 PAGE!
I hope you enjoy this!! They make great presents!!
Thursday, October 16, 2014
We are ready for a big show at Kentuck this week!!
Monday, October 13, 2014
KENTUCK ART SHOW..so, I did it. I was going for a vintage-y, organic look..to fit with the owner (who is a friend of mine), and I think that I achieved that. The top picture is before I added the little red bird on top of the neck..but, all in all ...I am happy with it. Hope you all like it...I have to go back to work now...busy, busy..preparing for the show.
Saturday, October 11, 2014
Saturday, September 27, 2014
Wednesday, September 24, 2014
I had a solo exhibit at Kamama's Gallery in Mentone that lasted 2 weeks (in July), and other than getting ready for Monte Sano Art Show (Huntsville,AL), Bluff Park Art Show (Birmingham, AL -- Oct. 4th, 2015), and KENTUCK (Northport, AL -- Oct. 18th and 19th)..I haven't been doing too much.
I spent some time helping one of my oldest and dearest friends find a house. He ended up buying a beautiful large house in Ft. Payne, AL. I am very excited about his plans for it, and how it is going to involve art. (Think Collaboration between him and I)!! I am trying to work out something that will allow me to NOT have to do so many shows per a year. I want to cut it back to no more than 5 next year. It is just really hard on Chuck and I, and I do not enjoy doing them. I have some donations that I was to paint up, and actually I want to start "giving back" to the art community..so, we have some plans, but for right now, that is what they are..just plans.
I was featured in the 2014 Fall issue of LOOKOUT ALABAMA MAGAZINE!! It was a wonderful article! They titled it "BETWEEN FOLK AND FINE" because of a quote that one of my friends/collectors said about my art. If you would like a copy, or to read it online, just click the link above, and you can subscribe for an entire year (LOTS of good articles) for $8.95. It is well worth the subscription--Not only to read my article, but to see all the beauty and activity in this area! It is sure to make you want to move here.
Also--The children's book--"THE GRINNIN' POSSUM", written by Ray Padgett of Mentone, AL, is at the printers. It should be out in a few weeks!! I am VERY EXCITED about this--it turned out absolutely beautiful! I will let you all know when it is out, and published for sale!
The other thing that I want to share with you..I HAVE STARTED PAINTING BIG!! By big, I mean 36 x 36. It is SO LIBERATING!! I found a great deal on that size canvas..and bought a few..and I LOVE IT. I have already sold 5 in that size--and I would have had to paint many, many smaller pieces to make the same money..so I AM LOVING, LOVING, LOVING IT!!! If you are intimidated by large painting..TRY IT. It is a whole different world!!
I am looking forward to 2015! Especially since it's barely 3 months away. (HOW IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE??) I would like to return to journaling, and maybe (a BIG MAYBE) some online classes for you all. I would LOVE to see a revival of BLOGGING! I think Facebook is at it's downhill slide..and I really miss blogging. You can do so much more with it!! Anyway..I am also going to concentrate on series, instead of one painting in one style..I will take a theme, and play it out, push it, and reinvent it. The other thing that I REALLY want in 2015 is to spend more time with my family in Florida, and see my daughter more. So, maybe I will be able to travel a bit, and enjoy life, instead of working, working, working...(Not that I mind working)...but, well..my family is not going to around forever.
So..That is all...I'm now caught up. Live Artfully!!
Much Love, Suzan